Times are a changin'

Today, is probably one of the hardest days I have had in over a year. Three of my best friends, my roomies, my support, are leaving San Diego to move home. We have literally been together almost every day for the past four years (excluding when they went abroad and school breaks.) I feel empty and unsure how to deal with the feelings. It is the feeling of sadness that they are leaving and that I can't see them whenever I want and the feeling of uncertainity that we are actually growing up and moving into the 'real world.'

I always try to stay positive and am for the most part-- however this has been REALLY hard for me to stay positive about. However, this change and this move is inevitable. It had to happen at some point and the time is now.

When I was thinking about everything that we have gone through together and everything that we have experienced. I realized that yes it is scary- the uncertainity of the 'unknown,' and knowing that we will not be right by each other's sides for everything we are now going to experience. However, my group of friends are extremely lucky. We have an amazing support group and if any of us ever needed anything each and everyone of us would be there to help in any way possible. We will always have someone to fall back on for help and support. That is rare. So in a way we do still have a little bit of a 'safety belt' going into the real world. We aren't completely alone, even though it may feel like that.

It's exciting to look back at the past four years and look at everything we have experienced, accomplished, and completed. Just to think that in the next four years we can be experiencing and accomplishing so much more is exciting.

So cheers to life, what has made us who we are today, what is to come, but most importantly now.